Working Out

is actually working out! I told myself I would get back into my exercise routines for the new year, as did thousands of other people I'm sure, but I'm actually sticking to it and believe it or not, enjoying it. I'm not sure what changed, but we did switch gyms and I tend to feel more comfortable at this new one. I have also made myself start getting up early in the mornings to do it and I've actually stuck with that as well. It's become a sort of addiction at this point. I even find that when I'm feeling particularly antsy, annoyed, or angry (which is easily any day of the week ending in "y") that I WANT to go to the gym.

Through therapy I've found out that I have some "ahem" control issues and I think I am trying to just focus on those things in the world that I actually have control over and this is one of them. I like having my quiet time in the morning with just the iPod and me and whatever I decide to try to do to my body that day. I actually do feel better after wards. Who would have thought? I don't know why I was able to get into this routine now, but I hope I can stick with it.

At first, it was this thing to get into shape for the wedding, but now it's just this thing. It's a good distraction for life and keeps me from being a complete lump. Only other issue now is my increased appetitie that goes along with it. I'm soooo hungry! I guess that's a good thing. I just need to eat less of the junk my body craves so dearly and try to convince it that healthy food really is better. I'm not there just yet.